100 truths boring question

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: mineral water
2. Last phone call: him
3. last text message: guy who’s driving you nuts. please don’t ask
4. last song you listened to: skyfall
5. last time you cried: last night

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice: yes
7. been cheated on: nope. never.
8. kissed someone & regretted it: no in one time and yes in another time
9. lost someone special: yes
10. been depressed: Yes
11. been drunk and threw up: nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black
13. white
14. grey

THIS YEAR, HAVE YOU: (2012)

15. Made a new friend: Yes, a lot. thanks God
16. Fallen out of love:  No
17. Laughed until you cried : recently, yes. because someone who’s so fucking funny just crumbled my walls down
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were: not really. still working my ass off to look for them
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes. and don’t give a shit
21. Done anything you regretted: Yes, no. hmm, I’m still confused.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: only maybe one third of my facebook friends, been planning to remove ones I don’t have any idea who.
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2
24. Do you have any pets:  yes, three times, three different pets. all dead.
25. Do you want to change your name: uh-uh
26. What did you do for your last birthday: forgot
27. What time did you wake up today: 9 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night:  was on the phone to sleep
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: decision
30. Last time you saw one of your parents: one minute ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? nothing. I’m thankful of what God has been giving me
32. What are you listening to right now?: nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I have. he’s my cousin
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: hungry
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, wordpress
36. Whats your real name: Sri Wijayanti Wulandari
37. Nicknames: Wulan
38. Relationship Status: taken
39. Zodiac sign: Aries
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary: SDN Suryodiningratan 3. you probably have no idea where it is
42. Middle School: SMP N 8 Yogyakarta
43. High school/College: SMA N 1 Yogyakarta
44. Hair color: black
45. Long or short: Long. plan to cut it short
46. Height: 160
47. Do you have a crush on someone?  could be
48: What do you like about yourself? mine
49. Piercings: ears. planning to make more
50. Tattoos: no (t yet)
51. Righty or lefty  : soooo righty

FIRSTS :

52. First injury: fell of my bicycle. bleeding a lot
53. First best friend: Corry
54. First Kiss: hmm, with the current boyfriend
55. First sport you joined: basket ball
56. First vacation: somewhere in East Java
57. First Alcoholic beverage : come from a country where drinking is kinda prohibited
58. First time getting arrested: 15 years old, driving without license

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nope
61. I’m about to: answer these 40 more exhausting questions
62. Listening to: some korean music come from my sister laptop which is impossible to understand

YOUR FUTURE :

63. Dreams?: get happy lovely life ever after
64. Want kids?: yes, 2. already answered
65. Get Married?: I would love to. hope in 3 years from now
66. Career?: haven’t come up in my mind yet. hope it would be something I love to do

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: eyes. but thanks God for giving me both
68. Hugs or kisses: Both. sorry, someone told me I was greedy
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic and humourous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both. again, someone told me I was greedy
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: troublemaker would be very challenging and fun
76. Looks or Personality: personality. but good looks and personality is just a perfect combination. so, I’d like to have both.

HAVE YOU EVER :

77. Drank hard liquor: no way
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
80. Broken someone’s heart: as I recall, yes
81. Had your own heart broken: of course.
82. Been arrested:yes
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: of course, what kind of people don’t cry when somebody died?!
85. Fallen for a friend?: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: yes
87. Miracles: of course
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Aliens: no
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

93. Are you faithful?: will figure it out. time will do the talking
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: not really
95. Did you sing today?:nope. didn’t feel like singing
96. Ever hurt someone?: yes,I feel sorry for that
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go back? really, kinda question I like. but no, we have our own paths. I didn’t want to change that even if I had the chance to go back in time because I would probably screw things I really grateful for up in this present time. so, no, thanks.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?  I don’t want to relive even a single second which is already passed in my life .
99. How do you feel this very second?: somehow nervous.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yeah, I already went this far.

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a fool on the junction

all of the sudden, in your perfect perfect life, something, someone just comes and shakes it. at the beginning you may enjoy, go with the flow, happy with all the things that happens. but you can’t live your life that way. life is not only at the beginning. it has what so called the end. and the end is really, not always beautiful, not always good.

at some point, you may be on the junction which is the time for you to make a decision that sometimes, no, most of the times, is just so not easy. you already got into your comfort zone, and you just don’t wanna get out. but, again, you can’t. you have to come back to reality.

there, deep down in your heart, that ‘thing’ owns you. it doesn’t want to go away. or, maybe you’re the one who doesn’t want to let it go. it changes you, makes your life even more colorful and more ‘life’! you feel something you’ve never felt before, you feel something different. so much different till you can’t make anymore difference whether you do have those feelings or you just do want to have those feelings because they’re something which completely new for you.

that ‘thing’, you don’t want to let go, do you? come on, it’s just started to grow, not even blossoming yet. it’s beautiful, full of colors, and shiny. and it also full of surprises. you never ever can take any guess what happen next. and that’s is the unique thing of that ‘thing’. you want to keep it, as long as possible.

so much differences is just so perfect!

and, there you are, standing like a fool on that damn junction. full of doubts and have no damn clue which way is the best for you. or, which way you do want. or, which way does make you happy. or, which way is the safest.

and there that ‘thing’, standing and watching you being a clueless fool.

sometimes, life is unfair. but you have to deal with it. and you do have responsibility of any act you take. you can’t just do whatever you want and go with it. no. in any act you make, there must be person who’s involved. either happy for you, or hurt instead. and ya, you can’t laugh and being happy when somebody might hurt, can you?

and that’s why you should choose.

like a friend told me, any decision you make is not gonna be fair for everybody. somebody will get hurt.

you are again, standing like a fool on that damn junction.

Sometimes she just needs you more than anything in the world..

when she stops giggling…
when she stops smiling…
when she stops holding your hands…
when she stops calling your name…
there must be something wrong, she needs you to find and fix it

when she starts crying…
when she rejects all the things you do…
when she starts crying even harder…
she needs you to hold her hands, even she refuses to hold back, or even to be touched at all…
she wants to look tough, even she knows, you know, that she’s just not

she could be a real pain in the ass…
she could be a real jerk…
she could be someone you don’t know at all…
just because you don’t do something she wants, even when you think you do…
it’s just a proof how important you are for her, how important you be there with her

forgive her, she just doesn’t know what to do
she just doesn’t realize all the things you sacrifice for her
talk to her, even she doesn’t talk back to you
open her eyes, be strong, and hold her hands no matter what
that’s what she wants you to do
because sometimes, she just needs you more than anything in the world…

Adi Nugraha Setiadi <3

there you are, posing because we were trying the new I-Pad 😀 don’t really like this pic because you knew I was taking picture of you, love your candid pics! and you know, love that new glasses! ❤

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hihihi I really love this picture of you, you know, that’s your very natural expression, love it! and, that’s the old glasses, where’s it now?

my beloved sleepyhead-boy :*

hey, boy, how could you sleep with me sitting next to you?

there you were, talking and I took a pic of you :p

we were at Djowitan. haven’t been there for a looooong time since my diet routine hihi. I miss them, milkshake and sweetcorn :9

mas ganteeeeng *.*

again, I took this picture and you didn’t know, see, it came out good lol. hey, boy, I love your nose :p

you know, I wanna take a lot candid pictures of you, but since I’m a very suck photographer, gimme some time to learn.

LOVEYOU!

Adi Wulan #2

sadly, we continued arguing, not really arguing bcz he couldn’t say anything. at that moment I knew, he didn’t say a word not bcz he didn’t want to but he couldn’t. but I let my ego won, I knew but acted like I didn’t.

he moved, he did it to calm down himself. I waited, not patient enough to wait that long, I walked away. he followed, grabbed my hand. I said to him to let go -this isn’t like I wanna make this dramatical lol but this is what happened-, and I asked, “You wanna tell me or not?”, it was like he swallowed his own tongue to just say “Yes.” he continued, “Please help where I’ve gotta start.” I replied, “How would I know! that’s your own life, not mine!” and I went back. second later I was really regretting that, it was so mean, the way I answered. I held myself not to cry bcz I heard my own voice when I said that word. he was trying so hard to make this all okay. but..

we sat, but again, he was silence. I waited, waited, waited. I said, “What do you wanna tell me?” he was talking sentence by sentence, and quiet, than continued sometimes word by word, and quiet again, that moment was going on for the next couple minutes.

and again, I was holding my self not to cry, but I lost. I cried, grabbed his face and whispered that I knew he was trying, thank you, hugged him, and let it go.

I really love him, really do. no matter what she said about ‘mine’ and ‘her’, what I know for sure is that I’m with him now. he’s with me. nothing to worry about 🙂

Adi Wulan :)

hey, my dearest blog! long time no see you -your page-, missed you 😉 you know, lots of things happens to me, includes these past four days. I wanna tell you everything but this thing is the one I really wanna share. well, here we go!

I found something that hit me so hard. oh no, no that hard but hard enough for me to realize something. I read a message, it was about a girl who had a crush or still have a crush -I don’t know, I don’t wanna know, anymore- for my man. i was surprised, how could she say such a thing. it said,

“Nd I remembering my past feeling because I read your girl’s blog. but maybe ‘mine’ is bigger than ‘her’.”

HOLY SHIT! I remember every single word of that message bcz that message really made my angry. how come she said something like that, what does she know about me? hah? has ever even seen me?

well, at first I wasn’t that angry bcz I didn’t know what it meant. here’s something that made me really really mad. I asked him, “what does she mean with that msg?” and he answered, easily, “Don’t know.” for 2 seconds my brain was working so hard then I found those issues made sense. well, someone said to me once, “There was a girl who had a crush, really had a cruh to your man. I don’t know why he didn’t wanna make that relationship. I mean, that girl was good enough.” so, after 2 seconds I said, “Is she the girl ***** was talking about?” and again, he answered really easily, “Yes.” SHIT! again.. from that moment on, I kept silent. I was angry, I really was.

what I couldn’t understand was, why should he keep this for so long? why even he should keep it? I mean, if it’s not a big deal, why didn’t he tell me? the thing is that was not the first time we’re talking about that girl. I was hoping he could explain to me right away so that I wouldn’t get it wrong. but.. that’s him, he didn’t say a word.

he knew, his silence wasn’t going to make anything any easier. it was only get worse. for both of us.

it wasn’t get any better, till the next couple hours.

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that was some kind of stupid questions, really. I knew it was gonna hurt me, doesn’t matter how I was holding on, it was still, hurting me. honestly, I wasn’t mad, I’m not even mad right now, it’s just feeling weird, you know, like sad, like feeling lost something precious, like I’m not gonna be able to hold on.

everybody has their own past. no matter what it was, but it was the past. they said, the past is the past, what the most important is now, and of course, tomorrow. and, what I’m trying to say here is everybody has their past in relationship. it’s some kind of open secret you know, what they did, been doing, and do in their relationship. yeah, that’s my point.

“Just let it go!”. I keep saying that to my self. been trying since last night before I was off to sleep. but this morning when I woke up, I was still there, the picture. that picture in my mind just doesn’t want to go away. it just keeps hanging in front of my face. and even worse, I started to feel nothing.

God, please help me..